I must apologise

I never wanted to cause doubt in your mind I'm not acting the way I think you'd like We went for dinner and now you're acting paranoid If only you knew the way I felt inside Your paranoia, it happens all the time And that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine I still do it, and now l'm by myself again Tell so many that I can't see them end So I say If I could, I would make amends Today, I wrote a list of them The way it starts, the way it ends I sign my name in marker pen (yeah) I must apologise Before I end the night It's not a game, I want to change These days, it doesn't feel the same The way it did some years before I've lost so much, l'll lose some more I'm not able To tell you what you need, it's a shame 'cause They say I should be honest more, one day, l'm sure I'll figure out the reason I was telling lies for