It Aint Easy

I march to the beat of my own drum Sometimes i lose rhythm forget what i am and i focus on isn't Instead my present my past is my prison my mind would escape it and then it revisit The things I remembered they ruin my feelings my confidence rocky it wasn't appealing Inside was a murder a hell of a killing something was missing and wasn't appearing Wanted to trust but it came with a cost why would i wanna put up with the billing Sometimes i cried my eyes were tearing I put up a wall like im making a building Things got hotter than food when its searing things had to turn but i had to be willing Hurting so much i was ready for healing It was me against the world like scarface had my head down like em lookin at the dirt Had to put my heart in a hard case felt locked out like I need a password Stuck between a rock and a hard place my chest and my motherfuckin back hurt No sunshine just in a dark place had to move forward not backward Now dont get twisted i never blamed god for the shit i was living The devil was busy and working against us he keep us in check in a awkward position The truth of the matter I never lost faith I got in my way Im human it happens what more can I say? happy i ended up stronger today It aint easy I pray that i lose all the demons i have And learn from my past while keeping the devil up off of my ass It aint easy things can get heated and burn what you have It Iant easy I walk thru the fire and duck all the blasts It Iant easy I pray that you give me the strength in my hands It Iant easy to pick up my burdens to throw in the trash It Iant easy I walk through the fire and duck all the blasts It Ian easy I walk through the fire and duck all the blasts Am i lucky or blessed? I don't know If i had to pick one maybe both Im welcoming both like a host till im up like a glass at a toast I don't care about being the goat Im studying positive quotes And loving myself the most when im gone im gone no ghost Right now, i gotta walk through the fire like Shakah Khan i aint stoppin none I aint tellin lies like a type of con I ain't selling games like a shop and pawn And i dont care about who got the biggest guns what i truly truly wanna focus on Is loving my family helping a stranger and loving thy neighbor Hard when surrounded by evil and haters Its crazy behavior Its hard not to snap like a turtle and gators let me get to the point like the tip of a saber I hope that I make it out before my world start to plummet god give me speed in my legs to start running Things have been slow for me maybe its something maybe it's something that i dont see coming Breathing is hard but my oxygen coming I am not yet what i know im becoming I know what its like to be hunter and hunted the things that i needed are just what i wanted All of your failures can make you feel haunted one day ima make it and then ima laugh Telling them demons to kiss my ass It aint easy I pray that i lose all the demons i have And learn from my past while keeping the devil up off of my ass It aint easy things can get heated and burn what you have It Iant easy I walk thru the fire and duck all the blasts It Iant easy I pray that you give me the strength in my hands It Iant easy to pick up my burdens to throw in the trash It Iant easy I walk through the fire and duck all the blasts It Ian easy I walk through the fire and duck all the blasts