Posthumous Parley

Hundred blunts in my lungs and I'm numb I been running with the Devil and the rest, I'm running from And I'm building a militia off the back of my tongue Got me pulling up on God, tell him watch what I become And I wanna be the one to fuck the world and kill the curse But the hurt superfluous The mental's in the dirt From birth to urn I got a battle for a church to burn I'm going nowhere so I paddle in the surf to turn Into the cattle, I was birthed to return To greener pasture, ever after but I happily spurn The population Cop a spaceship Say goodbye to the Earth No trace but the flame on the turf I've been searching for a way out of this existence of mine Life goes fast, the blink of an eye, don't you fucking waste my time Earth don't owe you a thing but a hole to lay in when you die They keep saying one day at a time but now my patience is running dry Tell me why These battles always happen Inside of my mind I keep pretending I'm doing fine Today I found my friends We talk of death inside my head I've been close to the edge Far too long, think it's time I leapt Fragments of happiness disintegrate where my feet bled Oh, how my angels wept as the infernal fire swept Throughout these catacombs, where my last shred of hope was kept Now there is nothing left, it's all just one big fucking mess Everyday I'ma fucking wreck Not a single card inside of my deck That isn't stacked against me Feel like I'm on a tightrope and fencing my shadow clone One slip up and I fall a thousand feet below Into the jaws of Hell, I am swallowed whole Rise out my coffin next day in the morn Tell my dead opps sayonara, adios Numb$kull, Shade, and Coaast We the ghosts wit' the most Come join us in the afterlife, we make ya souls float Reaper in the dead of night, I'm knockin' at ya door Let the blood flow 'round my castle like a moat Black Phillip, I am the mothafuckin' GOAT Life keeps on beating me down Into a person I don't wanna be Unfortunately, it's all that I will ever be I calculated the fallacy The only truth I found is in the pain we all carry Wondering how the brain inside of me has become my enemy