The Star That Gave Out

They tell you to find purpose in life It's a funny one But have you ever thought What if this is all just a dream Staring out the window Looking at the sky and contemplating How much pain must I endure before I'm cured from all this aching All I got is me It's a lonely world that I inhabit I don't get too close cause when I turn my back they often stab it The heart of man is tainted full of greed and envious The soul of man is breaking chasing its' own exodus Wonder what heaven is cause it feels I'm stuck in hell The more I search for love the more I fucking hate myself And I ain't proud of that it's hard to fathom peace within I'm drowning fast feels like the flames of hell been leaking in These demons breaching in they strip away my sovereignty Feels like the blood of sin been flowing through my arteries It's hard to see the light when deep inside my soul is weeping Can't tell what's wrong from right cause love is often so deceiving And so I drift away seclusion is my remedy I'm quite afraid my own mind could be the end of me Don't know who I am Don't know what my purpose is As I search within The more I seek the worse it gets Wish I could escape To a place where nothing dies Nothing last forever And that truth kills me deep inside Staring out the window Looking at the sun and broken sky Life could be so blissful but my thoughts become my own demise Always loud inside my head my thoughts become burdensome Doubts consume my heart with dread and pure contempt it's worrisome I hope one day I free myself from my own mental shackles And I'll prevail and all my deepest fears will be dismantled It's hard to handle truth when you feel used and rendered worthless Mentally abused there's so much pain beyond the surface But I don't show too much unless you look deep in my eyes You'll see my soul is crushed and you can hear a million cries Shadows of my past they follow every move I make My guilty conscious got me drowning in my past mistakes The truth is hard to face when your reflection's burning slow The person staring back is one which I no longer know Where do you go when you feel lost within your existence I can only hope one day I'll flee this mental prison Don't know who I am Don't know what my purpose is As I search within The more I seek the worse it gets Wish I could escape To a place where nothing dies Nothing last forever And that truth kills me deep inside