Feel Okay

I was lying through my teeth Every time I tell you that I'm okay I put a smile on my face But we know that it is so fake An if I act a certain way It's mean no time to take a break And I just have a funny feeling I was lying through my teeth Every time I tell you that I'm okay I put a smile on my face But we know that it is so fake An if I act a certain way It's mean no time to take a break And I just have a funny feeling Always itching at my brain I write inside a journal every day To help me feel okay But I guess it doesn't work Cause I'm not feeling fucking okay And I thought if I told them how I felt It might take all the pain away But I'm still fighting battles in my brain Just like any other day Every other day I find another fucking way I don't know what I'm doing with my pain And I am not okay I said and every other day I find another fucking way I don't know what I'm doing with my pain And I am not okay I get up every single day With so many thoughts inside of my brain It can never change I just want the pain to go away I just need the day to feel okay But it's way too late Only thing that help Is a hit from the pen all fucking day I always try to find a way to get away But it follows me in every way And it shows like a display So I don't blame you for wanting To stay away from all the weight And all I'm wishing for in life Is just to feel some fucking great I said I'm straight I know most of you can relate But the devil got another plate To add to all the weight Every day I try to find a way To get me the best fate Thinking about it I don't know What's happening inside my brain And I keep searching for a way To feel okay but nothing seems to stop the pain And all the thoughts will always find a way To haunt me in every way I was lying through my teeth Every time I tell you that I'm okay I put a smile on my face But we know that it is so fake An if I act a certain way It means it's time to take a break And I just have a funny feeling Always itching at my brain I get up every single day With so many thoughts inside of my brain It can never change I just want the pain to go away I just need the day to feel okay But it's way too late Only thing that help Is a hit from the pen all fucking day I always try to find a way to get away But it follows me in every way And it shows like a display So I don't blame you for wanting To stay away from all the weight And all I'm wishing for in life Is just to feel so fucking great