Never Happened

There was a way things were supposed to be Only joy and beanie babies in elementary In middle school my crush held my hand After I sang at the school dance and High school didn't end in teenage adultery My parents are happily married I met the one and we're so in love it's scary My grandma passed knowing that I was the next Dylan And my goal was never monetary If it's all been for nothing Someone keep lying Someone keep lying To me I don't mind But If all that never happened Made me this bold a Better me through the cold Then it all happened as it should My dad never battled addiction My ear to my heart in turn I learned how to listen I'm not looking for affection In a place where none is given Don't seek validation No choose me over him I don't blame my dad pick your poison Wasn't sober at 19 never boring I go out with 20 somethings Be the chaos that I'm wanting And you're not the thing that I'm missing If it's all been for nothing Someone keep lying Someone keep lying To me I don't mind But if all that never happened Made me this bold And it was as it should Then you and I weren't supposed To be anything other than What we were back then You and I weren't supposed To be anything other than What we were back then If it's all been for nothing Someone keep lying Someone keep lying to me I don't mind If there's a silver lining Someone keep trying Someone keep trying I need help to be fine But if all that never happened Made me this bold a better me through the cold Then you and I weren't supposed To be anything other than What we were back then You and I weren't supposed To be anything other than What we were back then You and I weren't supposed To be anything other than What we were back then