I Can Explain

Ahemmm Where's my cigarette? Okay, let's go Tell me what you want, my feelings never gonna change I'm throwing rocks right at your window and I'm standing in the rain Putting my heart in your hands was the worst choice I ever made And if I really think about it I get overwhelmed with shame And if you think I'm guilty of a hundred-thousand reasons Maybe if you'd understand every card that I've been dealt You know that I'm the kind of person always picking up pieces After every situation always fucking goes to hell And if you call me on the phone, usually I never pick it up So leave a message at the tone, it's probably you cursing me out And it's okay, because I'ma add that to my fucking instrumental And turn your words into my music, it's like you're hopping on the beat And all those worthless conversations we would work up to the surface I felt so empty with no purpose, empty blessings, many curses I should've been more patient and assessed my situation But I couldn't understand it any better, let me face it Fuck this humanity It's an endless infinity Just wanna kick back, relax Chill at home with my family I can see what you're doing I'm pulling up in a minute Whip around in the parking lot My head's fucking spinning And I would never wife you up because I heard your cooking sucks And I'm not trying to be offensive but I think I heard enough Of all your talking it's annoying, do you ever shut the fuck up Can you call a fucking uber how much longer till they pick you up Sometimes, I remain insecure My codependency has lead straight right back to her And I know that's kinda personal to say into this music But I can't just let it go because my thoughts get so intrusive So baby, don't accuse me You're lying through your teeth, telling your friends I was abusive You're a pathological liar, girl why do you do this When I catch you slipping, I'm not showing sympathy to you bitch I would fuck it up again I don't really think I know any better than him If I get fucking angry, pop a percy 30, and then I count to ten And make my ass end up back in the rehab once again