Painted Blue

I read my horoscope And abandoned all my hope "This was all a joke, we thought you knew" Pull heavy blankets over my head And make the bed a swimming pool Then tie some cinder blocks around my ankles And apply the labels of all my fears My worst intentions, the selfish engines That drive the pistons and turn the gears And light a fire and burn away All the efforts of my glory days As my reflection, painted blue Says "I will always be a part of you" I wrote my number down and then got turned around I parked the car but then forgot my place I wandered the desert, despite my efforts Wound up like Moses at the gates So light a fire and burn away All the efforts of my glory days As my reflection, painted blue Says "I will always be a part of you" I wanted desperately something I couldn't see A blinding light always just out of reach The ancient specter, the blind director The sirens on the beach That light a fire and burn away All the effort of my glory days As my reflection, painted blue Says "I will always be a part of you" So heaven help me if I stay Heaven I'll be fine if I go away Cause I've forgotten how to pray but heaven help me anyway