Descent (feat. Jono Hawkey)

I've sold my soul I've watched it all crumble right under my feet I've seen the change but stayed the same Addicted to this disease Forcing my hand upon my deathbed Laying flowers by its side Right before I start Digging my grave before I've died I can feel the light that's slipping away It feels so far away from me The cold is sinking into my body Drained by my obsession Because I've never learned my lesson I've been hiding all the joy that I can't find 'Cause I can't sleep at night I struggle with all the thoughts Running through my mind Because I choke when I try to scream, I want help By a brain, that's changed, to be someone else I'm breaking inside but I won't tell All the reasons that I hate myself I'm always stuck in a descent Hailing to my demons With all of this blood raining over my head Dragging the pain from within Carving it out of my skin The reaper and I walk hand in hand Oh, it must be written in the stars That I'm supposed to be miserable till I drop And i can't wash away the stains Of what this world has done to me Can I still erase my pain? Can I ever start over again? What would it take to go back To have the chance to change Would I have done anything different? Or just made the same mistakes? Maybe it's instilled in me? This constant state of lethargy Taunted by what could have been My own worst enemy I'm always stuck in a descent Hailing to my demons With all of this blood raining over my head Dragging the pain from within Carving it out of my skin The reaper and I walk hand in hand If I can't wash away the stains Of what this world has done to me Could I still erase my pain? Can I start over again?