i'm not doing well

You're on the phone with your mom, you look happy I'll sit on the couch with the dog, while she's napping I'll wait my turn, but I have to say something Before I lose my nerve Haven't been sleeping, haven't been eating Or I'm just eating too much Haven't been cleaning, haven't been feeling I think I should tell you I'm not doing well It's hard to say it honestly Don't know how to ask for help When I don't know what's wrong with me I hope saying it out loud makes it less scary I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well You hold my hand, and I struggle to let you You say you've known for a while, but it's nice to hear me say it You're holding space, and I don't wanna take it I'm trying to learn how Haven't been sleeping, haven't been eating Or I'm just eating too much Haven't been cleaning, haven't been feeling I know you can tell that- I'm not doing well It's hard to say it honestly Don't know how to ask for help When I don't know what's wrong with me I hope saying it out loud makes it less scary I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well, I'm not doing well I'm not doing well, doing well, doing well, doing well Look me in the eyes Tell me you're not worried about me If I look away, if I cry, that's a good thing