Sabotage

Lightin cigarettes, clouded head Dirty knots, locks of dread Pour me up another drink Anything to sink my misery Table top, lined rows Sniffin high on the low Roll another up, feelin so un done All these after parties, one night stands Oxy with some Vicodin Painfully sets the mood My heart is numb, my mind confused A recipe for sabotage Oh I'm so lost, I'm so lost And I'm lonely These signs, they're all telling me What you can't see And I cannot think but to hurt you (Don't do it...) If it's the only way to make you learn You seem to forget I'm always first, surreal (I know... god damn) Inducing pain don't you go blamin Someone for somethin that You know is so wrong (I get it...) Ah ah ah. Now I'm cookin up a recipe And it's you who can only judge me You know, trust me (I know this...) I'm on my knees. Won't you help me Hear my pain plead. Please Double shots, tall cups Double vision, fucked up Lay me down can't hardly think Just wanting the pain to go away Late night falls, early morning, throwed I'm rollin one up For the sake of the road A substitute for the love I'm feeling so un done All these after parties, one night stands Codeine, percs, and DXM Painfully set the mood My heart is numb, my mind confused A recipe for sabotage Oh I'm so lost. I'm so lost, and I'm lonely These signs, they're all telling me What you can't see And I cannot think but to hurt you (Don't do it...) If it's the only way to make you learn You seem to forget I'm always first, surreal (I know... god damn) Inducing pain don't you go blamin Someone for somethin that You know is so wrong (I get it...) Ah ah ah. Now I'm cookin up a recipe And it's you who can only judge me You know... (Dammit I know this...) I'm on my knees. Won't you help me Hear my pain plead. Please You told me... I love you more than you love yourself And you don't realize that You told me you're emotionally detached And with that I can understand the fact You also told me you have no expectation When it comes to me And in reality I can say the same for myself And sometimes it's hard to see the light When you're suffering in the dark It's a toxic love that can tear you apart I been thinkin bout ya Thinkin bout me, baby, I mean all day I know what I'm givin to ya And I know it ain't short from cold I been sinkin down, ridin round Heavy in a dark place I know it hurts when ya hear it I hope you know, I know I keep the drugs on me baby You ain't never come in first place I got the flask full Always wit the rum, never low, you know I know it hurts when ya hear it But I'm bein honest, always You see... I have a toxic kind of love for you, yeah, yeah I have a toxic kind of love with you, yeah, yeah I have a toxic kind of love for you, yeah, yeah I have a toxic kind of love to you I gotta be numb to ya Like my mindset always I sniff a line, puff a drag, take a shot. Oh It ain't easy for me baby Pain pumpin throughout my veins I can't stop it. Can't stop I have a toxic kind of love for you I have a toxic kind of love with you Oh I, Oh I I know I know, oh I