Late Night Freestyle Pt. 1

So many different numbers calling So just leave the message Guess this what my dukes meant When she say I'm hardheaded They steady doing me wrong But I tell 'em don't sweat it Karma is real So whatever you did Just don't regret it It's simple Ain't really down with the jokes and the gimmicks Shit ain't rocket science Or quantum physics It's really simple as sitting down and just tryna listen There's always two sides to a story Truth is always missing Ain't really down with the politicking Sneak dissing Snakes in the grass Let em keep hissing Always tend to catch myself alone and in deep thought My coping methods really ain't the best But I keep mixing But even when the night comes to and end I'm still standing tall Dismissed all of my feelings for the night I don't wanna talk Realest nigga in here though they been tryna keep me small Till they meet the kid and work And that was the coup de grâce (You say it's hard to deal with emotions, emotions) (I speak my peace but you don't get the notion, the notion) I've been learning to appreciate I talk to God and all my problems seem to deviate At times I barely get to sleep so I just meditate But the bass bumping in my head from the music that I haven't made It's been stressing me Don't know what's next for me I just pray that it's the best for me I just want better for myself A wise man once told me it's only you versus yourself So make sure whatever you doing you discipline yourself And staying consistent and tunnel vision That's the perfect way to gaining wealth Yeah, and that's just honesty Always speak my truth but to them It just sounds like comedy Miss me with the fake smiles And all the fake camaraderie Just waiting till a nigga blow up Or hit the lottery Damn, haven't talked my shit in a minute like that They prolly wondering like "damn who got him angry like that?" It ain't anger I promise I just been stuck in the moment Might sound a lil bit heartless When I say I'm glad we ain't spoken All the promises broken Heart got drowned in a potion Been trynna stay on my own feet Avoiding all the commotion But shit is easier said than done Man, it's hard to stay focused It's been hard to stay focused