Shed a Tear

I got a lot on my mind but I never shed a tear When I was down on my ass nobody ever cared I lost the ones that I love, everybody turn their back So I don't know who to trust They try to say I never make it, I won't never give up When they left me that shit changed me for the better I was going through it, I was writing all these letters Rip my pain from out my heart so I can wear it as a sweater Born alone, I'ma die alone, Phone on DND Just leave a message after the tone I'm overwhelmed, I think I need some time alone Double my cup, put some Henny in my styrofoam Fighting my demons, I've been losing the battle Hiding my pain, but it's starting to unravel I'm running through the rain, jumping over Puddles of pain I got ice in my veins from all the Novocaine I've been smoking hella dope, chiefing on a backwood Blowing hella smoke, all alone with my thoughts, ain't nowhere to go Roll another blunt after blunt, trying to let it go But I can't let it go I've been smoking hella dope Chiefing on the backwood, blowing hella smoke All alone with my thoughts, ain't nowhere to go Roll another blunt after blunt, trying to let it go Damn, I got a lot on my mind, but I never shed a tear When I was down on my ass, nobody ever cared I lost the ones that I love, everybody turned back So I don't know who to trust They try to say I'll never make it, I won't never give up When they left me, that shit changed me for the better I was going through it, I was writing all these letters Ripped my pain from out my heart so I can wear it as a sweater I don't need your sympathy, I don't need your handout Knew that I was different, mama always told me stand out From a boy into a man, I had to branch out I just hope you understand that I'm the fucking man now I came a long way from the bottom, I lead, I never follow Real niggas move in silence like Desperado I don't work for nobody, I'm making boss moves Watch the ones you calling your brothers, they might just cross you I left a fake love in the past They try to tell me that they love me, that ain't ever last It's all gas, no brakes, I'ma do the dash I came a long way from the bottom, I ain't going back I drown my pain inside a bottle, sip away the pain I'm filling up with mixed emotions, I need novocaine Every day's another battle, I'm going insane I try to keep it to myself, I never complain I got a lot on my mind, but I never shed a tear When I was down on my ass, nobody ever cared I lost the ones that I love, everybody turn their back So I don't know who to trust They try to say I never make it, I won't never give up When they left me, that shit changed me for the better I was going through it, I was writing all these letters Ripped my pain from out my heart so I can wear it as a sweater I got a lot on my mind, but I never shed a tear When I was down on my ass, nobody ever cared I lost the ones that I love, everybody turn their back So I don't know who to trust They try to say I never make it, I won't never give up When they left me, that shit changed me for the better I was going through it, I was writing all these letters Ripped my pain from out my heart so I can wear it as a sweater