Amsterdam

And so it goes, I'm playing it over and over I still don't get it Til now I spose, losing friends was careless but with you somehow I meant it Last words on your birthday, you left me with a whatever Should we have made a scene about it, stalemate early December Trying to sort my life out in the shower again The way I miss you kills me more than missing them Why do I keep dreaming, that we reconciled I woke up crying, it wasn't true last night You left me obsessing over everything And now I'm a mess again And I'm not pretending to forget 'cause you know I regret a few things And I feel heavy And I feel heavy Spent time alone, cos you made me feel I would only ever let you down I shoulda known, why is it that am I only seeing the bigger picture now Your cards weren't on the table, would I indulge you forever I wish that I'd have been less grateful, to put up with such bad behaviour Trying to sort my life out in the shower again Nauseous when your mentioned by our mutual friends Can't blame that I am breaking down on lust again The way I miss you kills me more than missing them Why do I keep dreaming, that we reconciled I woke up crying, it wasn't true last night You left me obsessing over everything And now I'm a mess again And I'm not pretending to forget 'cause you know I regret a few things And I feel heavy And I feel heavy Yeah you left me obsessing over everything You're just a silhouette of a friend And I'm on cigarettes again And I confess I hope you haven't found somebody to replace me since Amsterdam And I feel heavy