Ghost Stories

Don't say "hi" to me You should hide from me I'm so damn toxic that you'll probably fuckin' die on me Grotesque anatomy I'm missin' half of me It's more than that, can't do the math, can't count on the hands that abandoned me Everybody goes away, no one ever stays, I forgot another face Memories stuck on replay Everyone I ever loved, all that I touch, everything turns into dust All my angels in the ground, ain't got none left above Cam crashed his car— nothin' left! Same with Shawn— he burned to death! Missed a call, Chelsea's dead— killed herself with heroin! 2 a.m., out of breath! Nurses said my mom is dead! Vicodin and Percocet and loaded guns next to my bed! You think that this just music? I'm really goin' through it All that shit you talk about, well bitch, you know I really do it I got the scars to prove it These guns I really shoot 'em Keep on bein' stupid and you'll lose that shit you use to chew with Everybody entertained by my pain Kickin' that dirt on my name, straight from the mud I'm collecting the sticks and the stones For the day that I'm filling your graves My family got taken away I'm gonna use all this pain, I'll make it someday Every time I'm on that stage, they gonna hear your names Cam crashed his car— nothin' left! Same with Shawn— he burned to death! Missed a call, Chelsea's dead— killed herself with heroin! 2 a.m., out of breath! Nurses said my mom is dead! Vicodin and Percocet and loaded guns next to my bed! What you know about me?! I been digging graves since I was 19! Talk shit 'cause that's all ya got, G! There ain't nothin' left that you could do that could hurt me! I've been takin' so much Xanax to keep myself from panicking I'm staring at a casket and my mother look like wax She don't even look real, man, she look like a mannequin That shit hurt me so bad, you can't even fuckin' imagine If I'm sociopathic, it's 'cause all of the damage You mishandled my heart and hammered at it 'til it cracked in half Yeah, you told me you were pregnant, I'm so happy, cried my eyes out Next day found out you killed my unborn child Now I don't know who I am Hero, villain, good or bad, I'm losing track It's like the Batman and Joker been doin' battle in my head I'm bending bars behind a mask like Bane on Venom Rather watch the world burn than ever light another candle Yeah, I got a couple bodies on me! Yeah, I got a couple ghosts that haunt me! I got a couple bodies on me I got a couple ghosts that haunt me