Pessimistic

I'm not trying to be pessimistic I just need a little help Reminding myself to eat sometimes (to eat) I've been stuck in bed all day And making it my only Personality trait I'm not Taylor, I'm not Phoebe I'll write this song, it'll have no meaning But I'll still find a way to cry to it (oh) 'Cause life's become this pity party And somehow I'm the VIP I'm on the guest list and it looks like Crying and dancing I wanna be more than my father ever was Never kiss a girl and take her home If I'm only here to fuck things up 'Cause I've learned some people are flawed Only here to make things worse I'm not trying to be pessimistic I'm not trying to be pessimistic Sometimes when my head's in space I swear I see the god that Everyone's crying to and talking about It kinda looks just like my mom So I guess it kinda looks like me If you turn your head the right way 'Cause I take after her Recently, the good days only bring relief Change the flowers while I'm conscious Maybe take a steamy bubble bath 'Cause I've learned some days are just flawed Only here to make things worse But I'm not trying to be pessimistic I'm not trying to be pessimistic I'm not trying to be pessimistic I'm not trying to be, no, I'm not trying to be Some days don't get better And some dads don't remember And sometimes you can't put yourself back together Some days don't get better And some dads don't remember And sometimes you can't put yourself back together And some days And some dads And sometimes (Pessimistic) I'm not trying to be pessimistic I'm not trying to be pessimistic