REQUIEM FOR A DREAM

I get racked up in mystical schisms of visions at times Searching for thrills in my mind Pedantic with antics like I ain't got bills on my mind Running away from reality, that's a fatality I can't avoid just by taking my time The thought of mortality keeps me alive Game of the fittest, I wanna survive Am I a bird? Am I a plane? Or just a stoner that's gotten too high? Maybe I fall on the spectrum somewhere They can't answer why often I just wanna cry Even that lyric above is a lie I'm too afraid that I really may die All of my friends would just worry a lot And my family can't take another goodbye So I yield only to melodies That make you feel everything's okay Darkness can't go away Oh, I'm alright with pretending that all's well My well's not ending, we'll be okay That's what I'll sing today Fuck, I'm delusional Rappers be neurotic too, you know? My brain is far from the usual Ego be battered and bruised Messages scattered and loose, huh Nobody know where I'm coming from I'm a wanderer, what am I running from? (Running from) The image of me as a fuck-up Hope somewhere I look up and truly start having fun I made my passion my whore Whoever want more gets sounds on my stories neglecting the Lord Just to appeal to some teens who be glued to they screens And think Spotify streams are a score They gon' go fuck with whoever they want Why I get triggered by it every time? They don't really add a thing to the pot Just toy with the insecurities I got, yeah So I yield only to melodies That make you feel everything's okay Darkness can't go away Oh, I'm alright with pretending that all's well My well's not ending, we'll be okay That's what I'll sing today Fuck, I'm delusional (fuck, I'm delusional, fuck, I'm delusional)