looking in (feat. Scarub)

I welcome this uncomfortable growing season These thorns and buds bloom I peacefully receive them Blossoming inside of me It's that springtime energy I give myself time so I can go within Rolling over rocks, stones I'm deep cleaning An opening inside of me Spring time energy I'm old and am jaded I'm young and elated I'm lost in a cycle of self doubt and discourage myself Clouds wander by my single pane bay window sill They remind me to be still Looking in Looking in Looking in Looking in - looking in at I Looking in Looking in Looking in Looking in - I'm looking in at I I'm brave enough to analyze the ways that I behave Programmed by a system I will no longer obey Questioning the ways I've been springtime cleaning Polishing the nooks and crannies filled with dust and mud Dissolving fear & hate into acceptance and self-love Releasing Slowly To be Free I'm old and am jaded I'm young and elated I'm lost in a cycle of self doubt and discourage myself Clouds wander by my single pane bay window sill They remind me to be still Looking in Looking in Looking in Looking in - looking in at I Looking in Looking in Looking in Looking in - I'm looking in at I Mirror mirror, never been so nearer to my inner winner Got a vision clearer then I've ever figured And I like the killer I discovered in me What a lovely feeling Use to differ, I remember when I wouldn't lift a finger Self esteem little, wait a minute Couldn't picture, such a switch-up I was in a dimmer era I was chained-up in it Mental strain upliftment, had a tainted spirit From the pain I lived in, what a strange commitment Had to break and bend it, make a change re-visit Re-arrange my vision, now I'm re-invented Me, myself, and I, we up in this Be myself confide, unseen limits Bob-and-weaving through these times with reason Had to start believing in my thoughts and feelings Now the life I lead in more appealing Little TLC, lotta inner healing Reaching for the sky, breaking through the ceiling Leaping up to fly, loving what's revealing Will I discover what's hiding down below? Will I uncover my soul?