How to Die

I'm trembling in the mourning Gambling with all the warnings Drugs threatening to floor me Deadly disguised as a party Gonna die And yet it make me feel alive I keep this up, I'm gonna die So why it make me feel alive? Can't stop once I start My own thoughts tear me apart And I could lie But I really wanna die Don't think I'm supposed to be alive Girl, you make me wanna cry Yeah, stomach pains I don't ever dream, shit, I hardly sleep Hate the way I love it when I bleed I'm a sick fuck Talking 'bout a fuck, I couldn't give one Talking slurred cause all these fucking drugs up in my system Gonna die And yet it make me feel alive I keep this up, I'm gonna die So why it make me feel alive? Can't stop once I start My own thoughts tear me apart I keep this up, I'm gonna die And yet it make me feel alive I keep this up, I'm gonna die So why it make me feel alive? Can't stop once I start My own thoughts tear me apart