Hunting Season

Patience is a virtue But heaven isn't for someone like me And I would only hurt you Standing on your shoulders in the deep It's hunting season, always all or nothing My legs are so tired, how is anybody running? Why the hell am I so devoid of any meaning? What is living for if you don't know what to believe in? It's been so hard for so long It's been so hard for so long Where did I go so damn wrong? It's been so hard The forest has a fire But all it ever seems to do is rain (All it ever seems to do is rain) And I wish I was lighter So you would never have to hold my weight (Would never have to hold my weight) It's hunting season, heading into winter Running from the gun, but it's my hand on the trigger Why the hell am I so afraid of going deeper? I blame everybody but the person in the mirror It's been so hard for so long It's been so hard for so long Where did I go so damn wrong? It's been so hard I'm scared I'll always be this way That people will not want to stay That I'll wake up forever hoping I just make it through the day That I'll make myself smaller to fit Someone else's version That I'll lay down on my deathbed An unhappy fucking person It's hunting season, I don't have a weapon I am at your mercy, I was just a freshman Why the hell am I somewhere in between the crossfire? I say that I'm fine, I have become such a good liar