It’s My Birthday

It's my birthday, but I don't feel happy Forgot what the word means You know what it's like No end to the night when I won't let the light in Feels like l'm driving drunk most of the time I stare at the walls 'til they cave in And never call anyone back 'Cause I know that I'm not worth saving And who wants to talk about that? It's my birthday So I'II drink to my heartache I know it's the worst way to leave it behind If I'm being honest It's not what I wanted Feels like it's all too much most of the time I stare at the walls 'til they cave in And never call anyone back 'Cause I know that I'm not worth saving And who wants to talk about that? I'm always afraid when there's no one around But I can't see my friends 'cause I'm bringing them down Now I'm closing the door, and I'II shut them all out So they don't ask me why l'm not better by now It's my birthday And I'm hoping the window breaks To steal my reflection To show me outside Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever love her Feels like she's all I've got most of the time Funny how all that I want is to leave her behind