In My Blood (Our Version)

Is this the part where I meet my confessor? Eternal media rez? Did I choose or acquiesce to the pressure? Was it me or the stress? My condition is chronic And if I'm being dishonest I'd say that I'm fine But that's a lie 'Cause I'm not fine Apathy ain't what it used to be I'm running This river's running I'm tired of being what I used to be I'm running This river's running In my blood In my blood Is this the verse where I curse my aggressor? Could violence ever bring peace? Does my hate make me greater or lesser? Where do I find my release? I'm a losing wager And if I'm acting stranger It's 'cause I'm strange 'Cause I'm not fine Yeah I'm not fine Apathy ain't what it used to be I'm running This river's running I'm tired of being what I'll never be I'm running This river's running In my blood In my blood Is this the place where I'm faced with my jailer? The enemy of my soul? And is my fear just the fear of my failure? That makes my blood run cold? In my blood In my blood In my blood In my blood In my blood In my blood In my blood In my blood