Foggy

Waking up late and I hate what I'm seeing I do my best to try to change But I can't change what I'm feeling And if I ever made you sad, I'm sorry It's just these feelings are foggy right now Thought I'd take some time away from everyone to be on my own But then I find myself invested in the shit on my phone Confirming everything I should've already known But lying to myself, thinking I'm already grown And it's a cruel world, cruel world, cruel world Looking for the way I used to feel inside a new girl, new girl, new girl I guess I never thought I'd feel like this when I saw the cracks I used to shine so bright and now I'm fading black It's weighing heavy on my chest, you wage a heart attack It's always you I'm thinking 'bout when I start falling back And I'm falling now I guess I'm still waiting for the day that you might call around And I won't need to worry 'cause you'll tell me what it's all about Oh even if that were true, I don't think I'd understand Waking up late and I hate what I'm seeing I do my best to try to change But I can't change what I'm feeling And if I ever made you sad, I'm sorry It's just these feelings are foggy right now See it's a mind frame When you start to feel something inside your mind change Lie awake and feeling like maybe it's just a migraine It might fade or it might stay But start to look at it the right way And as you're watching what was left of the light fade The sky may open up, declare itself flight-safe I got so many things on my mind that I only might say 'Cause they keep getting stifled by the weight of the white page Like what if I don't phrase it in the right way? But what's this need for my name to be held in high praise If you don't like what you're seeing, then why should I change? People pleasing, I need new ways of reaching eden 'Cause Imma drown in this water while they just keep on breathing And I'll just keep on reaching 'Til I run out of these words and you won't hear me speaking Waking up late and I hate what I'm seeing I do my best to try to change But I can't change what I'm feeling And if I ever made you sad, I'm sorry It's just these feelings are foggy right now I'm still afraid of the weight of the complicated mistakes I made But they're fading to grey when I think about who I am today And I don't even know if you think about me no more See I still got you on my mind but I got my head on the floor now and it's a Cruel world, cruel world Cruel world, cruel world