I Refrain (feat. Ehnara)

My child And there you go, back at it again We pray and think about you when you out late with your friends As much we meant to talk about yo livelihood and future You just set to get upset, arguin' with rudeness Watch yo tone boy What's that about? Why you get defensive? And why you startin' quarrels, when we ask you questions? We brought you to this world so you better not forget this You know me raisin' my words tremble my heart And we are faced with uncertainty Because yours is ours we concerned for you You got a degree a while back so where's the work for you? Have you been searchin' through? For your insurance too Wonderin' if we got work to do, to keep supportin' you Hoy, we're not finished we have more for you And we do- we don't, HOY We don't wanna talk over you, listen For you and yo younger siblings we run that money You're lucky that you're up in this country Back home man we had less than this I was yo age payin' the bills Childhood grindin' my time daily for meals And matter fact, you wanna take my uniform and all of my tools? Why don't you go drive a 18 wheeler? See how it feels to be bigger? Fixin' the engines and that's just only part of the job That's real life skills, that's somethin' you probably not- No, I'm tryin' to talk to him right now Either way I hope you know that we'll keep workin' for you No we don't have all the answers 'cause we came here when we were young Made sure you had the things we didn't have when we begun And we won't be here forever We hope you read the message in our silence 'Cause deep inside we cryin' But I refrain 'Cause you my child and I love you I know one day you'll understand 'Cause you my child, you goin' through it Trust me I'll understand 'Cause you my child and I love you I know one day you'll understand 'Cause you my child, you goin' through it Trust me I'll understand Ahhh shit, here we go again I was only plottin' M's, meetin' ends with my friends I self-criticize about how I'm scared of the future It makes me realize how I should've prepared for it sooner I mean I, oh ok I'm talkin' back now? And don't compare me with my peers who got the purest of careers Or pursued graduate school yet, why am I still here? You ain't the only ones who thought degrees would make us problem free I'm faced with uncertainty I know that mines is yours it's all I think about Sometimes I ponder you would prosper if you lived without Me and my dependence on your payroll It's shameful but this ain't back in the days though This a different time, different place, different vibe, different chase Chase my dream while I make you proud I wish they paved a lane There ain't no play by plays Scrhollin' timelines day by day They got it made, are they doin' somethin' I'm not? Why I feel like I was tossed, deep side of the pool? Why I look up to you two but you look to me for the tools? Why you talk to everybody all about my school? With a little disappointment in how I structure my views? Or the paths that I choose? Major switches in education Am I your child or am I somebody to fulfill yo expectations? Am I wild or am I a reflection of what kills and makes you anxious? Worthwhile to bring this up, why can't we spill these conversations? I don't ask questions 'cause I'm stubborn, scared and young Rushin' life, gettin' stressed even though life has just begun But I don't dare talk back 'cause you've given me all of yours I just wanna give it all back times a million, plus more But that's impossible How do I repay someone who gave me life? This music is my future life so through this I'm indebted They say the ember yo parents once had is embedded on you So I guess you get to say that they bet it on you So I refrain 'Cause you my parents and I love you Right now I don't understand 'Cause you my parents I respect you I know that you understand 'Cause you my parents and I love you One day I will understand 'Cause you my parents I respect you I know that you understand This one's to all mothers This one's to all fathers I know you gave up so much But I can't live your dreams without regret This one's to all immigrants for the first generation All this pressure to be better Can I exchange patience instead? 'Cause you my parents and I love you I hope that you understand 'Cause you my parents I respect you I know that you understand 'Cause you my parents and I love you I hope that you understand Some day How long do you think you can do this by yourself?