Mirror

Started from the bottom now I'm walking towards hell Life's like the autumn now everything just fell S*icide and d*pression that is in my shell Can't break out of it head's become jail I'm Slave to my thoughts my brain's full of rot My Name is always brought with this shame I got Still same as I was all the pain that I caused I Became dirty fogg it's better if I'm off I'm a lying sh-t forget what you heard Never good for anyone I'm a piece of dirt Cursed what I touch don't know how it works Lost all I loved I'm good with toxic words Even if in pieces the peace is what I'm seekin' And for many reasons this guilt that is deep in My head is my prison and it is just stinking Free me with beheading and this is my the end Ever since you left my side this is what I'm going through Something is dragging me taking my soul too You weren't like this I miss the old you Begged you to stay I wished to hold you You walked away darkness came nearer Having you with me things were clearer Who's gonna save me you were my hero Tell me why you disappeared from that f-ing mirror What you f*ers know about what I go through? Expect me to be strong man I'm no goku Reliving my past reliving the whole truth Why my brain does this it rips my soul too S*icide on my mind all the time don't know why Tonight I'll get high I may fall I may die Hit the floor 2 times good bye to my life Stabbed myself to death how am I still alive Not easy to explain things in my brain! Kamikaze shots became my new friend High in my lows with my Mary Jane But she isn't helping now I need some cane Can't escape this misery it's never-ending loop Just trying to be okay and I'm pretending to be good Taking 2 more shots then I'm a friendly dude Y'all got some real smiles I really envy you! Ever since you left my side this is what I'm going through Something is dragging me taking my soul too You weren't like this I miss the old you Begged you to stay I wished to hold you You walked away darkness came nearer Having you with me things were clearer Who's gonna save me you were my hero Tell me why you disappeared from that f*ing mirror Whole life been accused doubted and blamed You say you understand but all you same Tell me why? Y'all just drove me insane Y'all are the reason I am in these flames Life or death I don't understand this no more Not feeling thing when I'm smashing a w*ore Don't know what to do I didn't plan this before Killer Instinct gone now I'm trash n I'm bored I wish to take my life when I see the knife Too much guilt inside it's hard to survive Full dead inside I can not be revived Blame as you like I'm ending me tonight Living a lie hiding emotions inside Going with this life reality denied Autopilot mode using bots to feel alive Voices took over now they rule whole life Ever since you left my side this is what I'm going through Something is dragging me taking my soul too You weren't like this I miss the old you Begged you to stay I wished to hold you You walked away darkness came nearer Having you with me things were clearer Who's gonna save me you were my hero Tell me why you disappeared from that f*ing mirror