Meant To Be

Yeah To my life, I hope to see you next year Yeah I'm thankin' all of my enemies I hope you know that y'all set the villain free So I will never fall on my legacy This is really all that it's meant to be I built up this wall and it's killin' me Now I let it fall to it's misery I'll be standin' tall on my own two feet This is really all that's it's meant to be Yeah I went from twisted, no cap, to literally just twistin' a cap 'Cause I feel this bottle's in fact, the only friend that I did have When I stacked so much on my back It's tragic but sad as it sounds, it's all that I had Lookin' back, I was kinda glad that I had it 'Cause if I hadn't, I probably would'a saw my end, it was possible Either that or my ass would'a been dragged up to a mental hospital God for bid, I was not myself, irresponsible monster, no one was stoppin' though Causin' so much drama, shit wasn't plausible But I feel like my conscience started quittin' on me, it's unfair Why the fuck is no one talkin' to me, hello, is anyone up there Can't bare to think that I have to make my own decisions Feel like I'm superstitious, can't even stoop to this shit But this is, not where I thought I'd be sittin' at up at this age By now I thought I be rockin' stages but man, have my plans changed Just wanted my hand raised so I can be victorious But I guess it seems I'm more of the loser, I'm not no warrior I'm thankin' all of my enemies I hope you know that y'all set the villain free So I will never fall on my legacy This is really all that it's meant to be I built up this wall and it's killin' me Now I let it fall to it's misery I'll be standin' tall on my own two feet This is really all that's it's meant to be I dreamed of being a superstar at just such a young age I think that it fucked up my brain, leavin' me permanent pain Wish I could say fuck with this, get up and just walk away Act like I never even took a fuckin' foot in this game Man, what I would do to go back in time and just change my behavior Hang with my friends and for fuck sake, be a normal teenager Instead of hidin' inside and writin', I'm losin' my mind All that I ever seem to see is yellow paper with lines Feel like I complain about this shit way too much and yeah, I get it You probably think if I hate this shit so much, why not just let it go and forget it It's not that I wanna hate it at times I love hip hop to death but someday's it's ruinin' my life Ever since eleven, my career has just been flat lined, I guess With this new decade, I'm afraid that it could just happen again And I just can't do another ten and get no where up with this I can't even wait another year, if I'll be honest so shit, is this it I'm thankin' all of my enemies I hope you know that y'all set the villain free So I will never fall on my legacy This is really all that it's meant to be I built up this wall and it's killin' me Now I let it fall to it's misery I'll be standin' tall on my own two feet This is really all that's it's meant to be Yeah, somedays I visit my older shit and I think to myself How fuckin' stupid I sounded, rappin' like I'd get a deal, that's how I feel I cringe up when I hear Therapy still And I wrote that when I was depressed and it still hasn't helped After this I'll be leavin' peacefully, decency's all I needed I dreamed of seein' so many people just freely believe in me But seemingly, that's not how it would be so I'm cleanin' my sins So Jesus can lead me away from this evil that be in me, thanking I'm thankin' all of my enemies I hope you know that y'all set the villain free So I will never fall on my legacy This is really all that it's meant to be I built up this wall and it's killin' me Now I let it fall to it's misery I'll be standin' tall on my own two feet This is really all that's it's meant to be So whatever man It's a love, hate relationship I guess The one thing I can say about hip hop is Hip hop's never left my side And for that I'm never gonna leave it's side I'm gonna die in this game probably Just comes down to whether I make it or not so, until then I'll see ya'll around