Middle Name

Friends are like tokens I switch out at the arcade My dad calls me messy Jessie, my title's here to stay Scream I'm the victim while setting up the game Send hate your way the second you don't call me babe Fuck a stranger born in a different decade Preach love yourself, while I hurt myself today Don't let them get close, love from far away I hate that I enjoyed watching my body decay I chase pain, I chase pain I chase pain, I chase pain Born with it like it's my middle name I chase pain My whole career was built on impulse Never learned the meaning of the word repercussion Parents never cared to give me time out Never learned how to control my own mouth Fuck a stranger born in a different decade Preach love yourself, while I hurt myself today Don't let them get close, love from far away I hate that I enjoyed watching my body decay I chase pain, I chase pain I chase pain, I chase pain Born with it like it's my middle name Middle name Middle name Can't believe I made it to 24 Thank god I stayed away from the bottle When I walk I burn bridges So I run unforgiven I was never anybody's role model I was never anybody's role model Oh I chase pain, I chase pain I chase pain, I chase pain Pray for the ones that never got away I chase pain Pray for the ones that decide to stay I don't know what do I don't know what to do I keep failing