I tried my best to say that it wasn't my fault
But I will make my mistakes and I will always fall down
And blame myself for when there's no one around to save me
From falling down
I fucking hate myself because of you
And there was nothing else that I could do
I tried to see what's good in you
But I can't see what's good in myself
A hypocrite, a piece of shit, a fucking liar
That's all I am, that's all I'll be
And I can't see how you could ever forgive me
I severed all our ties
So you don't have to watch me die
This hurts me more than it hurts you
I never like to face the truth
But I can't just go and pretend it'll be okay
'Cause it's not okay, I'm not okay
Feel the regret
I'm so ashamed to
To all of your pain
When I was afraid of who you'd become
You showed your true colors
And I had to run away
I hate that it's all
But I'm always so cold
And it's better this way
So leave me to wait
This hurts me more than it hurts you
I never like to face the truth
But I can't just go and pretend it'll be okay
'Cause it's not okay, I'm not okay
We have all failed as god's creation
And I am haunted by my mistakes
Do not pity me for I am a broken shell
But how could you blame me?
For trying to protect myself
I was only afraid
I always win the game of losing people that I love
And I feel like I'm the best at fucking everything up
And I'm so sorry, but I know that you will never forgive me
And that's okay
I never thought my heart could ever be so fucking numb
And all I wanted was someone to show me that I'm loved
But even that seems so far away (far away)
I made mistakes
Every day I'm so ashamed
Wish that I could take it back, but this poison is uncurable
I have spent my life trying to make everything right
I forget about myself
Then I get there's nothing left
Oh
My guilt has finally killed me
My guilt has finally killed me
My guilt has finally killed me
My guilt
My guilt
My guilty is fucking drowning me
