Yeah, aye
I'm surrounded by death
The devil breathing down my neck
Yeah I lost my mom and pops and now my grandma fucking next
I don't do this for a check
I do this shit for self-respect
I won't ever love myself if I ain't the fuckin best, yeah
When it rains, it pours, drowning in a sea of self-hate
Feel this hatred in my core, peace forever locked away
I can never find the words, but I got a lot to say, yeah
But I got a lot to say
Yeah I'd rather waste my life than me do what they want me to
If I had one wish, yeah I wish that I could talk to you
Tell you, "This is all your fault," with no follow-through
And to my friends I love, yeah I know that I'm a lot for you
Surrounded by death
The devil breathing down my neck
Yeah I lost my mom and pops, I'm smoking blunts like cigarettes
Used to make this music just to cope with the stress
Now this music shits the reason I got these knots up in my chest, yeah
God's lonely man cursed to walk this earth in solitude
Spent my whole life, they all asking me, "What's wrong with you?"
Now they all wanna be my friend, you see just what one song'll do
They said that they got my back, but they don't ever follow through
I hate myself so fuckin much, and it all comes back to you
One day I'ma be a star, and you'll never have a clue
What you fuckin did to me, I never had a chance with you, yeah
Never had a fuckin chance with you
25 years, I've been coping with the pain
Guess that I was never good enough for your praise
Shoutout Grandma, yeah she held it down cause she a saint
Youngmindtrip, the son my mother never saved
Drinkin' on tha Alizé, high as a motherfucker
Drinkin' on tha Alizé, high as a motherfucker
Drinkin' on tha Alizé, high as a motherfucker
Drinkin' on tha Alizé, high as a motherfucker
Drinkin' on tha Alizé, high as a motherfucker
Drinkin' on tha Alizé, high as a motherfucker
Drinkin' on tha Alizé, high as a motherfucker
Drinkin' on tha Alizé, high as a motherfucker
