Unfair

Ever since I was a kid, I felt the need to forget and forgive Silver spoon to my lip, but trying to find where my happiness lived And it was okay for a while But worsened with time and I started to trip I usually keep to myself But fuck it I'm just gonna tell you a bi-i-it I failed to articulate shit Like going out make me anxious Everyone asking me bout school, I wanna say fuck I hate it Wanna stay home and play sick But mom gon tell I'm faking Either the clock hand got real slow or I got damn impatient I went to school for an education Only learned that we lived in a fucked up nation Where people get judged for the person they love Or the skin color on their faces And there's like a million cases, can't imagine what everyone facing If this what it's gonna be like for the rest of my life Let me off at the next station I'm sitting in class and my heart is racing I can't breathe I'm in need of some respiration When you don't feel no purpose in life You can't set no goals cause there's no destination I want them to hear what I'm saying But even with hoping and praying I know that I cannot change shit And I feel my body decaying Drown out my thoughts with a playlist Drop my dreams of the A-list, uh Cause even if I were famous, worry I'd still be aimless, uh Now all that I see is grayness, turn up my color-grade or sum' Somebody come save me I'm held captive in my cranium I feel no love, do more drugs, anything to feel a buzz I drop my books for some woods cause I don't really give a fuck And I feel pain I can't explain but tell me who's gon listen up I wear long sleeves so you won't see the way I'm slowly giving up And I didn't make it to school today Cause I only got to the parking lot I'm thinking bout taking my At least someone'll get a new parking spot I used to get sad in the night Now it's happening whether it's dark or not I fucking hate my mind, but I don't want my heart to stop