unkind

Loving him was easy But I didn't treat him right While loving me is reckless Cause I know I am unkind As unfamiliar hands caress A portion of my skin It got me missing him It got me wishing he's the one to hold me Closer to his chest I'd stare as he'd sleep in And the safety just kicks in What I'd give to feel again I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him I do But I keep all these words left unspoken, cause I am not one to lose But I want him, I crave him, I need him, it's a game, it's a ruse And I know I will never deserve him, might as well cut him loose And yes, I will never deserve him (I ain't got riches to spend or provide) Cause everyone knows I am unkind (Everybody knows I am juvenile) And everyone knows he is perfect (And I feel pathetic when he's on my mind) While I ain't got nothing in life (How am I loveless yet lovesick tonight?) But I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him I do And I keep all these words left unspoken, cause I am not one to lose But I want him, I crave him, I need him, it's a game, it's a ruse And I know I will never deserve him, might as well cut him loose Oh I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him I do And I wish I had said what I hadn't, but my pride ran aloof And I wonder if things would be different, if I had made a move Now I am stuck drying tears off the pavement, after he bid adieu (After he set me loose) Yeah I know I am unkind to myself and I know He is better off with someone else, and it shows And it's selfish of me to not let him go (Oh he loves me) Cause now I am not the one that he brings to his house (oh I love him) After I wrecked the dreams that we'd ramble about (oh I love him) And I know, and I know, and I know that I love him, oh I love him so If had the courage to face and not avoid I'd tell him I loved him, I wish I had the choice I wanted to hold him, but I just acted coy If I hadn't hurt him, then I'd still be his boy