Kind

It's only mean if it hurts And it only hurts if it's true And they knew me too well So every punch made it through But I found a good arm's length Half a country away Thought I had nothing left to lose People love to talk about their scars And how they made them what they are And that's all good and well to tell yourself But it only goes so far You can't fix everything with paint And suffering doesn't make a saint But I was looking down Lost and found 'Cause I thought that was how you Built yourself From the ground And even know it's hard to Remember it will starve you Holding on to everything that's harmed you Once upon a time I believed in god And I still miss it alot How easy it had been To know the purpose and the plot But now there's no one keeping count And in the end your ghosts don't leave the ground So I was looking up As one does Like maybe there was something there That I could love and I could trust But all I found was empty air Remember they will haunt you The hollow gods you used to belong to Now I'm taking deeper breaths Working on the rest Learning to forgive myself When I haven't been my best Watching what I say And the damage that I take Trying to let myself be I've been taking longer walks And I've been having deeper talks And I've been letting people in And not just waiting for the end And I've been kinder to myself Who would've thought that that would help And I've been building up a life And I've been sleeping good at night And I'm reminding myself No one's keeping track of wrong and right And I've been granting extra grace And I've been holding extra space And I've been trying to let things be If all I have is here and now I wanna to honor what I've found I wanna to live a life so loud That no one can ignore the sound I wanna be kinder to myself I really think that it'll help I wanna be kinder to myself I wanna be kinder to myself