Never Trust Anyone (feat. Sepha.)

Rivilin A foggy bed covers home How did I get here vision is not clear Lost in a maze of streets alone All i do is fear, withered inside here Yeah there's a vacancy where i mistakenly Put the trust in the ones i love Laying a wake with a knife pressed to my skull As the nightmares take control Stuck on a cheap diet of cigarettes Just so i can keep the hunger at bay Swear to god that someones living inside these walls Cus i know that hes calling me name I don't feel like i'm making sense When i talk yeah i just regret Every little sentence that leaves my mouth Cus you always seem to twist the words i say Whether it comes from a family, a father or lover Or something i don't really care Try to explain what the dissociation is like But they don't really understand Never can be perfect, yeah i know that But its hard when you look and stare Filled with the judgment of someone else's problems Till it's more than i can bare It's just a glitch in my personality Feel the anger lurk in me Boiling burning till the circuits In my spine start to collapse Pressure is building, the person on my shoulder Tells me that nothing here is real Guess that's fine, i'll just repress everything Until i cannot feel I never wanted i never wanted all of this I'm so disgusted, i'm so disgusted i can't quit The faces changing, i think i'm lost inside my mind Yeah if i don't wake up soon i'm thinking of taking my life Yeah what's the point man, yeah what's the point when you just run Yeah i'm so pathetic, i couldn't understand im done Yeah my mind is aching, i think depression has just won Yeah if i don't wake up, i think yeah my chances are gone Sepha Look at you taking a part of me away Every time u make demands and say Its for my best u know me U have my best interests at heart Our interests are not my interests I just want to rediscover myself Again i lost so much but At least i wrote it all down to remind me in moments like this Im running away now go Not cos im a victim no Just cos i let myself believe that i was your equal but no U hide under pretenses False empowerment perspectives Everything is someone elses fault ur only using ur defences Im flying away im Glowing up glowing up glowing up Look at u take a part of someone else away