Relaxed but Attentive

It's another Dave type beat But I'll still do it Eloquent in my elocution I've been influenced This French girl likes the way that I rap Now I'm tryna' speak in fluent There's isn't much pain in my voice Because the only time I been through It is the only time I been through it I'm really making careless music Dunno why I put so much care in to it Still working out the all bearings to it Lyrics coming fairly fluid Sparkle on a beat- flowing like a liquid Like how a fairy do it The engineer got me crisp, no soggy bottoms I'm really making Mary Berry music Relaxed but attentive and you're calm- that is from my father What you rather Be the person looking for your purpose Or be the person they're chasing after Trust me I got no idea Hold my beer While I stop, think, ponder, reminisce bout my oldest fears Like will I keep my old mates Will I meet my soul mate I just hope that I'm okay for For my folks sake They raised me impeccable The living standards were exceptional Only disturbance was the decibels Of waking up to rap, I had Dizzee screaming Jezebel "Daddy, what's a jezebel?" Fuckin' hell i only just gotta whiff of the brekky smell Rap book in show and tell Had bars when I couldn't spell It's not a new hobby Double digits been spitting since I was 2, probably You need Sonny cos lately it's getting too foggy You need a factor 50, sun is getting too hot People faking to be hard, like a boob job I'm authentic in my bars try and prove wrong And you might find I don't do wrong New song- tunes on Quick bong- Game on Ready set My soul feels rich I havn't even earned a penny yet If you're still listening then I respect you already I question where's the light but I know that I'm heavy I'm always fuckin searching for the soul like it better be right here I get stuck up in my mind ye I regularly fight fear In reality im chillin I know that my life's clear It's different levels Ready for the trophy, getting sick of my fuckin medals I'm starting to feel a bit feral Pushing on all of the pedals Where am I going to settle It's like I don't know what life means Is it about mochas and chai tea Or karate and tai chi Read between the lines I think It's pretty unlikely But then what's the right meaning I'm not rlly being demeaning I just get weak at the feeling Of being unsure Like what If I just walk through the wrong door I wanna take the stairs all the way up to the top floor I wanna go hard for the last 4 And lots more Give me a chance That is all I ask Let me speak my truth along to the drums and guitars It's a gift if you can advance away from the past Cos then you're present I don't know for sure if I can make it but I reckon uh I got a way with words and so I get away with rapping And Im stacking up ideas I hope that they dont end up stacking Who am I to rap bout hardships when I've had none It's like tryna find the answer to a mad sum Can't figure it out Appreciate the praise but I thrive from the doubt In the rain or a drought You'll Catch me spraying If this shits a game then I wanna start playing It's time that I release because I'm done with the delaying Musics like my home and so it's here where I'll be staying So tell me what you sayin'