Last Valentine

It's always been imperative That you control the narrative Paint the story in your light Just so you can sleep at night Your pattern is a lesson You'll likely never learn Until you're choking on the ashes From the bridges that you burned You did your act of violence As if we had just met Made all the decisions And you did not break a sweat It's fight or flight When things get tough I wanted us to last So I prepared for battle but You grabbed a boarding pass You feel you're in the right Cuz that's just how it's done When you're a child and you're bored And you're looking for some fun You made me feel insane Making sure to get your way So you could hop a plane Take your shit and run away Dodging my affection Leaving me perplexed Destroying our connection Now on to the next Leave the house Ditch the dog Dump your partner And our life Burn it down Walk away Post a story Twist the knife No matter where you roam You'll be staring at your phone Watching someone else's life Like it's better than your own Scrolling pictures endlessly You didn't see the irony That our life off the screen Would be many people's dream Said I'm sorry for my part You refused to do the same Because you fail to see your role Thinking you are without blame All you care about is you And I should've seen the sign When you touted your love language But didn't honor mine Never shared how you felt Thinking I should read your mind Quick to play the victim And then acting like you tried Maybe someday But unlikely You will come to realize too That the ones who loved you deeply Now have grown to despise you For the way that you acted And the things you did You wrecked a loving home For a motherfucking kid Lay your trap for another Pretend you are a lover I have pity for your prey When you go icy like the tundra Paint your face Puff your lips Stain your skin Pad your tits Try to fool all the fools Posing at the boutique pools Bouncing to the next hotel Acting everything is swell Just another shallow soul Trying to fill an empty shell This might seem vindictive And you're absolutely right But it's the version of our story That you did not get to write A grown woman in the world Acting like a teen Making sure that your life Is one that will be seen By insta ranks And vapid skanks Seeking validation But likes won't cure your emptiness Or offer consolation You slipped away too easy After everything you took Made you think we're cool And I let you off the hook Now that you have shown me Exactly who you are I was such a fucking idiot For lending you my heart You said you still love me And that you wish me well But no matter what you say And no matter who you tell I don't have to like you Just because we had a past This is your Valentine Consider it the last