exile

No one ever makes a sound The lights are turned off in my house No one ever comes around I like it that way Even though sometimes I wish The opportunities I've missed Come back to me and just insist I'd still say no again And late at night is when I feel it the most I know it's bad to just rot and decompose till I Feel alright inside my head, inside my soul And I wish it wasn't like this but it's the constant push and pull And I push away everyone that ever loved me And I pull away from all the ones that want to help I'm not okay inside my head, inside my soul I wish it wasn't like this but it's the constant push and pull Comfortable in my own space Finding comfort in the pain Being lonely at my pace I like it that way This is my private exile This is my writing style I'm still a fragile child And I write songs about me And late at night is when I feel it the most I know it's bad to just rot and decompose till I Feel alright inside my head, inside my soul And I wish it wasn't like this but it's the constant push and pull And I push away everyone that ever loved me And I pull away from all the ones that want to help I'm not okay inside my head, inside my soul I wish it wasn't like this but it's the constant push and pull But I'll still turn all of my lights off Fall asleep in my own bed I'll still dream and sleep And sleep and dream some more Until I'm dead I'll still say I'm sorry Even if it's not my fault I'm never gonna change And wonder why they Still like me at all