Spiritual Bouquet

Yeah With my wine and tea Anger got the best of me Write until forever Guess that's what they mean by destiny Thinking bout the rest of me Sip until I feel it Then I get back on the lesson thing I been tryna pray more On that blessing thing I get back what I put in On that heaven thing Used to think about the ones attending On that wedding thing But now I'm forced to focus On the life after the editing Cash flows up, then down On the seasaw I really do this for my Grammy gram Shouts to Memaw Knew you back before I had thoughts Yeah We thought We would have forever all the time I thought that we bought Life as a child funny, thought that was the be all She saw The path god had for me that's coming down the line Regretting all the times she rang me up And I decline These Regrets are Itemized The things i had to sit with the mistakes are on my mind I bartered and I begged hoping God would see me crying Simply Begging for a sign Up late, escape, Demons in my eyes I was tryna talk to him Promise him I'm trying I was out on missions At the time I was assigned To be the guy I used to be I'm Grateful I survived Granny on my mind I'm sorry I neglected you I say that all the time The moments when you needed me I couldn't analyze All the Height's we climbed Man I should of felt obliged Changing on my actions The college I applied Fed when I was hungry To me you were assigned Blessing in my life Girl, you always would provide As I got bigger somehow You shrink inside my mind I hate that I rejected you I loved you as you was Chasing all the other shit That shit that gave me buzz You loved me, you loved me And I know it's just because I loved you, but I hated all your flaws Letting people fuck with me Chasing that applause Think back how I treated you It always makes me pause Never wanna be that way again My apologies I can never get it back to what it was Missing you, doesn't even cover what I wanna say You're the short pain when I breathe in my airways You're the missing time I exclude on my resume You're the face I really wanna see in the doorway Didn't give in the hearsay The one I leaned on during holidays Now life got me going one way Having you gone got me down everyday Now I hideaway Thinking fonder thoughts about the other day Days spent thinking on what you would say Grams I love you dearly heres to you spiritual bouquet I wish I could Call on the phone Call on the phone Prayer Blessings Love Yeah