I End Up Alone

How much would you do to feel wanted? Holding onto something, then say it's lighthearted While you're laying in a house that's rented And you know they are paying a mortgage I painted the walls, though I know they might fine me Running on water because I am thirsty Paying it all back then blame the economy 'Cause I can't admit to be loved costs me money I'm the other apartment Loved then discarded A moment of excitement A relapse when you're heightened I'd do anything for this though A rented house isn't a home I end up alone I end up alone I end up alone I end up alone A rented apartment alone in the city Numerous guests in beds after parties Though I know that you dream of a townhouse Maybe Toronto, LA, or Chicago? I know my head is self-aware of its problems But the child in me can't stop them Maybe it's something I got from my mother 'Cause I pay rent like a permanent lover I'm the other apartment Loved then discarded A moment of excitement A relapse when you're heightened I'd do anything for this though A rented house isn't a home I end up alone I end up alone I end up alone I end up alone I end up alone Ooh I'll kiss you a little harder So we can stay out 'til it's darker And I beg you're thinking of me While you're pulling on her jeans And I'll do anything for you to see me For you to wake up and want me Sell five years for the perfect body Let you make me feel dirty But I'm rented for a moment It's a lease I won't end up owning I've built this house I'm now alone in Maybe I'm better off alone (better on my own) I end up alone (better on my own) I end up alone (better on my own) I end up alone (better on my own) I end up alone (better on my own) I end up alone (better on my own) I end up alone (better on my own) I end up alone (better on my own) I end up alone (better on my own) I end up alone (better on my own)