Never the Muse (demo)

Wanna be the muse but I was born to be the writer I wish that I could lose you but I've always been a finder Thought that I could choose myself but I'm always a ride or die Cool Girl could diffuse it but there's Too much fire Put it out Put me out Wanna be a match so I can make myself seem lighter I'm feeling you detach so now I'm grasping even tighter Thought I could relax but I just made myself too tired I wish I could be a mystery Give you desire To figure me out I'll figure it out And almost by accident It's all about you again This song was supposed to be about me You're standing there with your friends and dancing in my head Put me out of my misery Wanna play the game, I'll try to be a strategizer I drive myself insane instead of putting on the blinders Thought I could hide the pain but I'm not born to be a liar I wear it on my face in place of something you admire I always find the truth, no use in being a denier You pull me like a tooth, I'll loosen up if you're a biter In loving someone else I mark myself a secret fighter I wish it didn't hurt but at least I'm inspired To play it out I'll play it out (loud) Play it out I'll play it out (loud) I'll play it out