Searching for Forever

Yeah Muffled voices talking loud Been talking to myself like "what the fuck they talking 'bout" And you can tell who struggled when the teacher called them out More talking on the low, these niggas scared to talk aloud Faced problems on the road, I saw them try to walk around But when they finally get around them I'll be lost in the mirage But aren't we all chasing something? I'll be damned if I slow down When my life was throwing curves, my biggest fears was on the mound Cut the dramatics out, what matters is who want it more I live up to my name I'm fighting battles and internal wars I do not play this game to get pats on my back or earn awards Anxiety been... I need to meditate and journal more My vision don't align with helping white men reach they bottom line To wake up chugging coffee just to make it through my 9 to 5 From here on out I'm done with waiting round, I can't waste the time This mountain I'm facing, fuck it if it ain't safe to climb I'm destined for greatness I'm My dawg The realest niggas that I know Tell me what I need to hear, especially when I need it most And remind me where I've been when there's still so much left to go I'll forever keep 'em close From foggy garages and water bottles The bongs was numbing our tolerances And sitting arguing over who prolly starting with kids first Years later, Brandon and Roddy fathers and shit And knowing them without a doubt they sons and daughters is set I reflect on them days Jordan 4s, Nike Techs Hoop dreams, training camps, getting cut, I'm upset Fuck the coach, writing bars in my notes Holding them back from the world Dom was like, "Bro let's go, you up next!" Man every morning we would link At the breakfast tables before our classes 4 tardies each, if the bell start ringing we hauling ass Some kids behind us was knocking pencils freestyling I would just listen close like if I start spitting, I'm running laps Around these niggas, but too afraid of my own potential One day some kid pointed at me like "G we heard you rap!" Heard Dom say "he nice too!", I'm not ready My palms sweaty, knees weak, arms heavy Said fuck it, got up out my seat and heard the 1,2, 1,2 Suddenly the silence filled the lunch room I said, "um... My name is Gihad, flow the nicest They say I'm bound to blow but keep it low they'll think I'm ISIS Uh, driven but still don't got my license And y'all ain't seeing son like working night shifts Long nights just turn to days, I can't tell, I work a life shift It's just a matter of time Y'all bound to see just how my life shifts" Shit, the bell ringing bro lets go! I got like 3 tardies already if I get detention one more time My pops said he's taking my phone for a month! Hurry up bruh! Hurry up!