If I Die Young

I know I ain't perfect So I'm writing songs tryna cleanse my past I pray and I hope that it's worth it Cus I know I'm a lil screwed up And my head's fucked up I need more than a surgeon But the world's too fucked had to alter my brain Now I got loose screws in my head Cuh I'd rather be dead than trapped in a circus So... So if I die young Can you carry the weight of my name And promise to stay cuh this life is tough And tell me that you ain't giving up Cus I know that it hurts way more than love And tell me that you love my soul I been writing these rhymes and feeling low Cuh the old me's dead but I still feel cold Everybody dies one day so I live my day Like this, in the present And sometimes it rains wen I'm feeling pain I just rap it all up and I keep my distance That's why you hear me drop every second They ask me why I don't get mentioned It's cus I rap real shit, I don't think bout hits All now I been sending a message And I been hurt so much Now you think that I'm perfect Really I ain't inna the drama They tell me I'm deserving the world All over a girl, I been a disaster Drowning my thoughts with lyrics They can't even hear it, fuck it just get me a plaster I bleed so much that I'm drowning the plaster I've ripped out flesh so maybe it's karma cus' I know I ain't perfect So I'm writing songs tryna cleanse my past I pray and I hope that it's worth it Cus I know I'm a lil screwed up And my head's fucked up I need more than a surgeon But the world's too fucked had to alter my brain Now I got loose screws in my head Cuh I'd rather be dead than trapped in a circus So... So if I die young Can you carry the weight of my name And promise to stay cuh this life is tough And tell me that you ain't giving up Cus I know that it hurts way more than love And tell me that you love my soul I been writing these rhymes and feeling low Cuh the old me's dead but I still feel cold You know I been going through mental stress I would say I'm depressed but I ain't even pressed And I got so much space in my head I don't need backup cuh my feelings compressed I cloud up my mind with thoughts There's 48 laws Talk less & conceal my intent Watching my bars fly over your head I got birds-eye view when I'm surfing the net Cus everybody talks and I just show action I spend more on family and friends And then I invest, give myself a fraction And if I had a girl I'd spoil her too Like my mum love see her reaction Cus I know that life's too short If they take me away then I won't respawn So I spend my pay and carry support And low-key man I miss my therapist Money buys freedom and gives me a chance Bailed me out my emotions I couldn't control them Cuh my life's been hard I still Reminisce bout' the girl that I left And it sucks, it was love but I broke her heart Really wanna leave a legacy on this place But what if one day I take drugs cus' I know I ain't perfect So I'm writing songs tryna cleanse my past I pray and I hope that it's worth it Cus I know I'm a lil screwed up And my head's fucked up I need more than a surgeon But the world's too fucked had to alter my brain Now I got loose screws in my head Cuh I'd rather be dead than trapped in a circus So... So if I die young Can you carry the weight of my name And promise to stay cuh this life is tough And tell me that you ain't giving up Cus I know that it hurts way more than love And tell me that you love my soul I been writing these rhymes and feeling low Cuh the old me's dead but I still feel cold