Veins

Oh, I can't love, so I just don't know what (needing the knives you leave in my back) I just don't know what (yeah) This pressure keep achin' my lungs I had too many drugs and I think that I'm gonna collapse I hate the way that I had needed somebody but seems like nobody had needed me back I break down these trees and I roll up the leaves and then I just start feeling my breathing get faster I'm scraping my knees, I'm watching them bleed and I don't even scream, I don't even react Say I'm a fiend of all these things and then you expect me to take 'em as facts I separate all the things people say and I'm learning to line (yeah) 'em up with how they act If God really real, then why do I feel? I skip every meal, but there's tons on my plate If God really real, I'm crackin' the seal 'Cause he never had us in his fate Army of I suck again, it's a slip in the arms of disaster, I'm hardly awake Feel like I can't be authentic, white girl with a Civic, she stabbin' my veins, she a saint Swear that bitch Satan, feeling so numb, need a cape, and pasting, I need me an eight Then look in the mirror, no cape, and darkness awaits and taste is acquired through hatin' Loving, I hate it, want you, but know you just hate me, so I take drugs, I'm escapin' Knowing I'll never feel safe and, yeah, demons live in my cage All of these things, I'm pushing 'em back I'm a householder in the back, I'm too hard to relax I hate who I am, think I died in the past I ain't showing the pain, rather hide it than laugh I've been going through things on the side of the glass It ain't always green on this side of the grass Needing the knives that you leave in my back, yeah This pressure keep achin' my lungs I hit too many drugs and I think that I'm gonna collapse I hate the way that I had needed somebody but seems like nobody had needed me back I break down these trees and I roll up the leaves and then I just start feeling my breathing get fast I'm scraping my knees, I'm watching them bleed and I don't even scream, I don't even react (Whoa, oh) (Whoa, oh) (Whoa, oh) (Whoa, oh)