Dark Paradise

I'll say goodbye To what I thought I knew it meant to be alive Run back and forth inside my head I've been counting every reason Just to try and make this all make sense But I keep on coming back with all these Wounds to stitch, no room to switch All my panic into something I can use to fix my selfishness How long will I just sit And watch the disconnection grow 'til it can't be fixed? The damage done, that's the consequence Of burning bridges that you shouldn't have lit Straight down I just think it's hard to pretend we're straight now I can't shake them, the complications that I found Searching for a future without you Lusting for something that feels brand new Wishing you could feel just like I do Straight down I can't look myself in the mirror Holding on 'til I can see clearer Hoping I can piece things together How long will I just sit And watch the disconnection grow 'til it can't be fixed? The damage done, that's the consequence Of burning bridges that you shouldn't have lit I've got myself to blame Nobody else but me For my lack of happiness I just gave up and that was it I just don't think it's right for me to live so selfishly Why do I always play pretend Only holding back what I'm feeling within Only wasting time How long will I just sit And watch the disconnection grow 'til it can't be fixed? The damage done, that's the consequence Of burning bridges that you shouldn't have lit The damage done, that's the consequence Of burning bridges that you shouldn't have lit I've got myself to blame Nobody else but me