Reflection // Rumination

Some days I've been doing just great Some days I've been doing just fine Some days I don't wanna hit play Some days I just wanna rewind Some days get the fuck out my face Some days I just need more time Some days I just need to unwind Some days I be out my mind I've been waist deep waiting Tears down my face cascading displaced by the casket waiting Flood levels raising Contemplating not holding my breath And just letting the current take me Sometimes I can't take it Some days I just wanna break shit Some days I just wanna tie the noose around my neck And push from my legs but the rope keeps breaking Sometimes I wanna break out Take an axe to the walls of my brain let the darkness just playout Sometimes I just stare at the stars, get a little spaced out Wish the sun would explode Take the light from the globe till we fade out Yeah, it's just another day when I wake to the shakes And then I start to break down, wait now I've been doing great but its fake now Shrink keeps talking, I ain't hear a word he say now Too many heads on my plate saying Jake you need to get back in your place Gotta rearrange my state now Guess it's part of the struggle, it's making me hurl Body is crushed by the weight of the world Head keeps on spinning, guess I must be tripping I'm done overthinking I'm dead to the living life Some days I've been doing just great Some days I've been doing just fine Some days I don't wanna hit play Some days I just wanna rewind Some days get the fuck out my face Some days I just need more time Some days I just need to unwind Some days I be out my mind Maybe I just gotta breathe Dust the mud off my knees Pull the flesh and the bone from my teeth Drag myself through the fire and fleas Watch the light through the trees Feel the sand on my toes Taste the salt in the air from the sea Aim my fist at the breeze Be a Sheppard to the sheep I'm too sporadic, its problematic I'm Feeling manic, I lean back and I put the mag in Could do the damage, brains would splatter Too illmatic, predictable like its systematic Refuse the antics, diffuse the sadness, infuse the madness Stop acting like it's too dramatic I break the habit, I make them have it, remain a savage Climb the top like it's snakes and ladders I was feeling hollow, starring down the bottle Actions getting hostile, hands up on the throttle Peering through their goggles, write another novel Talk about their squabbles, mouths are fuckin' muzzled Now they looking puzzled, voices getting' muddled Feathers getting rustled, grab another shovel Asking for it yeah, they wanted trouble Now I wanna see these suckers struggle like Lift the weight of the world, that's stamina Watch the game unfurl new calibre Pull the sword from the stone Excalibur Then swing for their throat like (Wooh) new challenger Lift the weight of the world, that's stamina Watch the game unfurl new calibre Pull the sword from the stone Excalibur Then swing for their throat like (Wooh)