Still Seeing Red

I've been seeing red for 25 years Looked death in the face so what the fuck is fear? Grown accustomed to the pain The only way that I feel It's the only thing that still feels real Bottle after bottle, my one true vice Picking my own poisons Make sure I mix 'em right I'm not stuck in my ways It's just the way that things go and I'm all out of hope Living and loathing Searching for ways to cope I'm okay with the suffering, just gotta get by Everyday living, living only to die One more pint it'll be alright Because I'm living only to die