So Many Nights

Trapped in the wake of a dream Searching for light, walking under clouds of gray The calm before the storm of never ending rain Pieces of memory, fragments from reality Reflections of my life they fade & wash away And when I close my eyes, I see what's waiting So many nights, I lie awake Asking myself is this worth the pain? A lifetime of hate & all my shattered dreams So many nights... my soul weeps With a crown of thorns upon my head Will I ever feel love again? Where once invincible, now my armor has worn thin Face to face with duality And when I close my eyes, I see hell and it's waiting for me With a crown of thorns nailed upon my head Will I ever feel love again? Where once invincible, now my armor has worn thin Face to face with all the things I can not change Every day I sit & I wait All alone, there is only me & the thoughts in mind I now contemplate Please God, just take me away I'm in the dark and you've put me in this place So many nights, I lie awake Asking myself is this worth the pain? A lifetime of hate & all my shattered dreams So many nights... my soul weeps Searching for light with the rope bound from my neck Will I disappear? Will I ever forget All of this sorrow & all of this pain? So many nights my soul weeps