Stupid.

Ken, I fucking hate you Write these songs like I got some' to say But when in person, ain't got none to say 'cause I'm a stupid, broken, anxious shell of a man, I don't think that I can Reach every goal that I had in the plan, I took a turn on the path that I had So close, yet so damn far, how can I feel love with a broken heart? Coming this far kinda blows my mind Still, sometimes I just want a hole in mine Carrying weight with a broken spine, I get so full of hope in a hopeless time 'Cause that's all I got to rely on, where was God when I needed the light on? I was stuck in a lightless place when he took who I loved to a lifeless space That was fucking forever ago but the feeling I felt, it won't ever just go And sometimes I don't think that it's better to cope I do better at this when I'm hurting the most I bled for this, I shed for this, went to heaven and jumped into hell for this I'm bred for this, was fed for this, burned every bridge just to care for this But you won't understand, don't even care if you can I'm so full of myself, I be foolin' myself Tryna act like it's cool when I'm crying for help When I know that it's not, but I won't ever admit that I still feel like I'm lost, but I'ma still just pretend that Everything is a-okay, even when I hate every day Every waking moment is a moment closer to the day I'll really find out if all this agony was worth the wait Or if it didn't even matter at fucking all I get this urge, I should just splatter this fucking wall With every piece of me that holds these secrets deep beneath The surface that you see in me These curtains here conceal a beast, that I don't wanna show nobody