Living in a Nightmare

Had to walk away, I had to let myself out Lose another day obsessing over self-doubt All I wanna' be is somewhere I can lay low Just a lowly, humble place to let my day roam I lost a part of me but, it ain't been holding me up A side that nobody see, living a horrible dream I lost a part of me but, it ain't been holding me up A side that nobody see, living a horrible dream It took a couple years for me to understand That I been living in a fantasy land, I don't know what I am? I'ma call that shit the other side, another time I took it to the limit of the darkest space up in my mind I wasn't innocent, I had a couple fetishes The drugs they kept me numb, but all the money got ahead of me Fuck the enemy, he messing with the peace I know He tell me ugly secrets about how to be invincible Go on and talk all your shit I know that's all I'ma get Fuck the other side, and all your other underlings Ain't never welcome back to anything that is in front of me Had to walk away, I had to let myself out Lose another day obsessing over self-doubt All I wanna' be is somewhere I can lay low Just a lowly, humble place to let my day roam I lost a part of me but, it ain't been holding me up A side that nobody see, living a horrible dream I lost a part of me but, it ain't been holding me up A side that nobody see, living a horrible dream Go to war up in my mind where all the demons lie They talking all that shit, and taking time away from living life Everybody going through it to, I hope you choose to know The devil is alive, how 'bout we throw his ass a funeral Wanna' use my heart, but homie I don't think so Tare my world apart, I tell him that's a big no All my life, I really had a distant memory That everything I am, is working hard against the enemy I lost a part of me but, it ain't been holding me up A side that nobody see, living a horrible dream I lost a part of me but, it ain't been holding me up A side that nobody see, living a horrible dream