If I Lose You (I Lose Everything)

I think I need a rule book So I know how to talk to you I'm sorry it's been a while But I figured out Some things about myself That I'd like to share but You first Did you ever get lost in New York Like we said we would but never got around to it Sorry if it's weird to ask I'm sorry But I think about you I think about you When I write when I sleep When I need someone to talk to It's new But it's true Singing the songs we lived to I'm learning to be human And sometimes that's hard to do If I lose you I lose everything If I lose you I lose everything If I lose you I lose everything Pinky promise by the bleachers where we met Declaration of Distance Friendship Dude, I swear if you leave me again I'll lose those 10 years and pretend It never happened But you're still in my bedside drawer With the necklace from Jersey I'm torn It's hard enough these days without you 5 min from my front door We'll say "Hi" like we're strangers I don't know why It's a lot to unpack right now Sorry how is the family They must be proud How long are you in town? Cause If I lose you I lose everything If I lose you I lose everything If I lose you I lose everything If I lose you I lose everything I lose every memory I lose years of me I lose every possibility of finding me I lose autumn swings I lose carving trees I lose grass stains I lose everything I found oxygen I found midnights I found dancing in the rain in her headlights I found peace In the city I wish I never had to leave If I lose you I lose everything If I lose you I lose everything If I lose you