Dying 2 Live

No, I wonder if they'll laugh when I'm dead? Why am I fighting to live if I'm just living to fight? Why am I trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight?, (Yeah) Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try?, (Just give me a try, man) Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die? You ever have a lot, wishing you ain't had what you got Because the shit you have can make some people hate you, I'm shocked You wanna start a war, but then the swords get turned into shots I'm not the soldier you want, but I'm the one that you got I fear a lot, but being robbed or shot can tear you apart The thought of your friends betraying can leave you in a rot But not gonna let all that shit just go and lead me to stop I'll then erase all this nonsense and put my faith into God It's like I'm walking with my tail between my legs Had a lot to go and give, but I just threw that all away All these suicidal thoughts, but I don't wanna die today Not begging for no one's help, just wanna express the way that I'm feeling I got a lot up on my shoulder that just carries the weight So many people say I'm crazy, I believe what they say I feel like I've gone insane, I can't control all these ways Pistol straight to my brain, before I am gone then I'll say No, I wonder if they'll laugh when I'm dead? (Tell 'em, man) Why am I fighting to live if I'm just living to fight? Why am I trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight? Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try? Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die? Huh, it's funny I used to be the type that would talk about all the money Now I'm barely getting paid on a weekend if I be lucky I'm putting my music over the people that's ever loved me It's kind'a disgusting how I am selfish and never loving, but tell me What would you do if your passion gets to your head And you barely have slept and people be pushing you off the ledge And I'm always in bed thinking of stupid shit that I've said Cause I'm always fighting back with the faggots that wanted me dead But instead of falling off of that ledge and acting a mess I'ma take a step back and just re-track what I did Maybe take a few meds with a Jack Daniel's instead Watch the Walking Dead with a friend all over again Anything to get my mind off all the shit that I did And every upsetting time that I would have as a kid That carried into my life, and now it's here as it is Freedomly expressing my shit through the line's that I hit No, I wonder if they'll laugh when I'm dead? (Tell 'em, man) Why am I fighting to live if I'm just living to fight? Why am I trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight? Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try? Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die?